okay my faithful group of followers, im back. ok so we broke up for good. And it was ugly i had lost interest in writing my blog not knowing really why but deep down it was because he took no interest in it. at all. We had a rock y rocky relationship and i tried to make it work. i tried to act like i didnt see what was going on. having his cake and eating it too. I guess iwas supposed to act. like he was.

Not bashing him at all but he did a job on me! he told anyone who would listen that i didnt trust him and it was my fault we broke up and justother stupid things i have no time for. postingon fb about your relationships past and present. yes present. can you believe that? wow,


i had it and i never thought i would say that i guess its true all the things you accept become the things you regret eventually.
i can honestly say i regret my part in it. not all of it because it was wonderful to love someone if only for that moment.

but my dealings with all the things associated with his life and mine. i cant say to myself that it wouldve worked im saying that it didnt work.
i let god have way on this one i was fighting with the devil and i kept losing. if he isnt supposed to be therethen so be it. i need to be here though. for me.

maybe ill take some type and get to know me a lil better what am i good at? what should i do with my life? things i contemplate everyday. deciding that im not gonna lose. he will. he did.

i have obstacles in my way but nothing i cant get over. i dont wish any bad feelings toward him...hurt feelings yes. still crying yes.still strong? absolutely.
im afighter, im a survivor and i wear my strength everyday.
i know theres more for me that was just a speedbump in my road to happiness.

goodnight.