exes:::

ok ok ok in a very carrie bradshaw-esque kinda way im gonna have to as this question.......

am i the only woman on the planet who is jealous of her mates past relationships?

am i the only one who wishes she would just go away?

not just her name and number but her existence in any form????(too harsh?)

well i dont care!!!!! lol

i just want him to forget....Her hair, Her eyes, the way she moved,

the way they would share intimate moments together ,how she held his heart in her hands ,and how she used those same hands to crush it???

And ultimately how he tells you every other second he gets how wrong she did him?

for his sake i would want to erase any memory of her, and how i want to say to her that im upset that she did that to him and how im picking up the pieces of his broken heart....and shes horrible!!!!!

but then i think....

hes kinda holding on to this pain like a crutch in a sense ..

ex:"i was in love before and shes ruined me, im not ready to say certain things now cause im damaged i wanna protect my heart this time"

say what ???negro?!

then i have to ask the question: in relationships are we all playing second-fiddle?