just when the caterpillar thought life was over.....it became a butterfly!!--

i love this quote because when you think your down and out

god gives us another chance and we should take it

and not waste it:
i just recently lost my niece as of 7/27/09
we dont know the cause just yet she was only 17
we never know what GOD has in store for us
and we never know when its our time but
always remember::what you reap is what you sow and
your children will suffer those sins also...
we are at the end of days,and all this superficial non-sense
that people are concerning themselves with is un called for...
and the only thing we need to really concern ourselves with is
getting our place in his kingdom....forever!!!
god bless...

R.I.P. TAMIKA!!! SEE YOU WHEN I GET THERE!!

I was asked just recently what kind of music i like...

I love r&b of course, but i felt a bit reluctant to say what else i listen to because whenever i mention my music taste is eclectic i get stared at: ex: sarah mclaughlin, the fray, maroon 5, dido, carrie underwood, avril lavigne, even madonna here and there....as far aas rap goes...ummmm...not really my cup of tea. ok, lemme be honest jay-z, nicki minaj, remy(doing her numbers, keep ya head up ,ma) common, and few more..

reggae, soca, (island girl, so its in me!!!)

i wanted to know what else people listen to besides the usual.....what do you listen to???

for all of those who have stopped by, left comments and are followers :

marry who???

I believe theres alot to be said for
the single ladies out there
who dont care if he puts a ring on it or not...

I've had the yearning for the whole wedding thing...the cake, the flowers, the dress,and the happily ever afters....but i think im destined to be a bridesmaid for life...

I've been to 5 weddings in my whole life and it seems that everyone was getting hitched but me.

i havent completely given up on it,I'm just not that into it anymore..i deff dont want to be the only one of my sisters who isnt married but in my defense some of those that are married arent happy...

will i always be the single girl at weddings???(btw, i caught the bouquet twice!! twice!!)

and to no avail...im still not married.

i know some women today feel like getting married is a waste and would rather settle for right here right now,and all the details can work itself out later.

but when you ask these women if theyre happy the answer is always "yes".

can it be??can you can have a relationship for years and years and still be considered his girlfriend or his "wifey"and still say im happy with that?

i couldnt imagine going years in, kids, cars, co- habitating and still no true commitment....thats why i never married my kids father...i wanted to be happy and he wasnt gonna be the happiness i wanted... i know when to call it quits and marriage is a strong word to some men and maybe he wasnt ready but i was....so now hes left wondering what happened...alone.

dont get it twisted i still wanna get married and i still think about it ....not often, but I do.

trust.....

trust has never been an issue in my relationship but.....

We go to Ruby tuesdays in times square we're almost finished our appetizers , and he has to go to the restroom, no longer that 2 minutes since hes left his phone starts ringing....not one to answer his phone so i let it continually ring . I sneak a peek at the name(going in the memory bank for later). he comes back looks at his phone and says nothing, being me and all i asked him "who was that"? he says "just a friend"...wtf!!!

'who'? i asked.
he hits me with "you dont know her"...

woooooooooow!!! this fool sits back and continues to eat his big ass burger...

so what do i do you ask????

not wanting to make a scene in the restaurant about some chick i dont know, i just continue my dinner like nothing happened.

BUT, on the inside im mad as hell!!!!!

i just took the advice of a fellow blogger "don't snoop, your gonna find something you dont want if you do".

SO, i didnt probe him anymore but, im left with the feeling that i shouldve dug deeper....i dont want him to think that because i didnt say anything that its ok for him to be "friends" with this chick i dont know and the bigger question is: does she know about me?



the bottom line is I dont like to be played for a fool....i dont know if i should ask him to introduce us, or just trust that hes being faithful? i need some real advice before i smack the mess outta him......

cute!!!

just when you thought youve seen the cutest puppy pic.....heres my fav!!!

different how???




in my header of my blog i said that i was different and the world sees me different...for those who havent read my older posts the difference is that i am a survivor .....a burn survivor. there was a fire at my house when i was a year old and i was hospitalized with third degree burns on my hands ,arms, and forehead...

At first, i was reluctant to post it but then i saw this episode of 20/20 last night and they showcased triplets who were burned in a house fire, and they were saying how they were always afraid to show their arms(like me), they thought that because of what happened to them they would never be accepted(like me),but then they came of their shell (like me). being scarred is traumatic and crippling.
In life you never know whos talking behind your back and then you dont know if someone thinks your weird or strange or just stare at you.(i hate that)
In school when everyone else was dating i wasnt, when people were experiencing their first kiss, i didnt. there was a lot of life i missed out on ,but as you can see the perpetual ugly duckling has turned into a beautiful swan...I still have my scars but a swan nonetheless.

i believe i have a little photographer
in me trying to get out.....
took these pics two days ago from the old man who
lives down the street. since his wife died
he keeps up the garden, wow love is a powerful thing.

thanks mr.carl......xoxo

REALLY??

















why do women feel reluctant about making friends with other women, but have no problem opening up and sharing with a man they've just met?

is the sisterhood dead?????

I can understand the trust factor, but in the case of the woman who's trying to establish this new friendship isnt she just putting herself out there and possibly setting herself up for rejection??


and what about the woman whos being pursued as the new friend? She doesn't know what to expect either(single white female, hand that rocks the cradle,remember those chicks???)
but when you have two women who meet and have some things in common,WHERE'S THE PROBLEM???

Popular opinion is that women are used to their already established friends....
we've been through the crisis, the tears, the make-ups, the break-up together and getting a new girlfriend for some is just a time consuming waste of time.

Alot of us arent open to new friends, but in my case i only have three friends and im open to meet new people and expand my friend circle.,but its hard.

You never know if you're offending this person,if your too hood, too eager, too pushy and in most cases too nice.


so what do we do????

My only advice to women out there looking to make new friends,be yourself.
And if that doesnt work let your new friends come to you..if your a great person like me ...they will come.

im mad as hell....................

ok i leave my d&g dominatrix shoes at my bff's house over the weekend and she calls me and tells me she let another one of our friends wear them and that persons car gets impounded....with my shoes in them.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

ok im not this big shot diva kinda girl but i do love shoes especially the ones i paid money for and my friend doesnt buy her shoes the way i buy my shoes (payless anyone?) i go to dsw, bakers, nine west, endless.com i buy shoes.
she is responsible for them and i want my money now!!!!

best friend or not im getting tired of her shenanigans(yea, i said shenanigans)
shes irresponsible when it comes to her things and i trusted that if i put them away she would leave them there until i was ready to pick them up. not so.

i'd hate to give her the silent treatment over shoes but they were my fav pair and now their gone...i cannot forgive.

another question: where does it say because were friends i have to suck it up as a loss and just get the money for them and be ok?

money isnt the issue, its the fact that she has no regard for my things and did i mention they were my fav pair???

im mad at her and she knows it.

excuse me ,while i cry.

well the blog is green today and lets talk money.... and men!!!

i recently had a discussion with my bff the other day at the bar...ok lemme tell you what happened and why we were discussing this new phenom.

my bff dee is what you would call almost every mans dream...light-skinned, big booty, long weave and when she gets drunk its whatever(no offense but its true girl, you know it). Anyhoo, there was this guy that she"d had been screwing for a few weeks and she said he had a friend now as you all can see im practically engaged,lol. And that he wanted to meet me (i dont know if he wanted to meet me as a friend or he wanted to reap the same benefits as his friend) but either way i wasnt interested...so, reluctantly we meet (lemme tell you!!!! he was an adonis)
chocolate, built ford tough and the nicest dreads, beautiful smile and all...
upon the initial introduction he asks me "so what do you do for a living? How do you make your money to hang out?

flabbergasted!
i left a little to the imagination i said "i get by and why are you so concerned with my money issues ,we just met?" he took it for what it was and decided i wasnt whatever for him and left. No goodbye, nothing.

which led me to ask the question: upon meeting someone interested or not, does your credit score or lack thereof really determine the men you attract or dont attract?

the friend comes into the bar and has all these excuses why he left( he doesnt drink, hes in real estate and he wanted to know if you were interested in real estate) i told him cut the bullshit and keep the shit real...finally.
he says "well hes been played before by women and hes just keeping an eye on his wallet, and hes about his money"

i was relieved that his friend told the truth(KINDA THATS HIS BOY SO....) but, i was offended that his first question was about my coach wallet...and what was in it.

i guess he wanted this fantasy woman who has her own but lets be honest...
if i did have my own he would have never known...i dont feel like it was tactful,
he was arrogant, and he relied solely on his looks and i think the tables in his case were turned i think hes played a few women and i didnt have enough to support his ego.

theres nothing wrong with having your own ladies,but when hes bumping that neyo shit make sure he has his own too....

to roc(the guy at the bar) FUCK OFF!!!!